10.30.2010

BIG SIGH

Sometimes I just feel like xrdcfvkhnalfkjamlfajlcjlaksjmvlakeviufmleamaflnblajkr;nalrsaehfvaklshdfklvhenflksrinfkshfansrkfhkasrjfhkasjlvhrkfnr bnalsiflsirflamirfjmlaisrmfivmjisanfvljarlkfjsla;rfjnvsjlkfjlrkjf;alsjra;lkjrls;kajfl;jnlirsjf.

Ohhhhhh why can't people listen? Even to their loved ones?

10.28.2010

WORST THURSDAY



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I missed Sumpah Pemuda ceremony. One of our most important national ceremonies.
I missed math revision.
I missed Bahasa Indonesia extra class.
I missed my friends' performance for a certain competition.

How long till I realize, that time is money..
How long till I realize, the wrong things I'm doing..

10.26.2010

CONFETTI



Sometimes, chocolates and blue manicures are enough to make me happy.

10.24.2010

CITY LIGHTS AND TOWERS

You with your new green shirt,
and me,
in our seventies,
dancing with alphabet music,
which you're singing,
incoherently,
in front of the city view,
at a cold and windy night,
just like 50 years ago.

10.20.2010

LESSON #1

You can try several attempts to appear tremendously beautiful like a goddess, so beautiful that even when you're sweating like a pig it doesn't lessen your exquisiteness. But that splendor mask of yours will appear as a cobra facade, if your external divine doesn't reflect your cold heart.

Personal experience.

10.18.2010

PLAIN WISHES

1. Listen to my complains, without interrupting.
2. Calm me whenever I feel insecure.
3. My family know how much they mean to me.
4. Improve my ugly grades.
5. I sing one song, and not ruin it.
6. I spend one day without having a fake smile.
7. Scholarship in Singapore/Australia.
8. Understand the nature of physics.
9. Stop being addicted to the computer.
10. A better person.

10.12.2010

HOLE

Yes, I'm still alive and breathing healthily.

So many things happened throughout the months, from August till October. And I'm not sure if I can rewrite the incidents.

I never realized that from making the correct decision, would hurt so bad. It's like there's this deep hole inside my heart.
It started when I decided to tell you to stay away. And became worse when I accidentally dropped a plate in the kitchen. And reached the worst climate when I lost my mother's Calvin Klein sunglasses.

How can falling in love with a flawless guy like you, making me feel so blind towards everything.. Everything.. becomes so simple..with you around. And now that you're not beside me, although, I know you'd still be willing to stand beside me, everything feels heavy.