4.13.2013

BORING IT IS, THEN

I have never been fond of unplanned weekends. Unless something happens spontaneously, I end up thinking about how boring my life is.

I know that isn't true at all. I define my life. If I think my life is boring, then it should be me... who has defined it, is the one who is incredibly boring. Perhaps I'm the one who needs to change. Which is unlikely to happen, since I'm originally a boring person. I'm astounded by the people around me who have been bearing with my tedious aura. I pity them for having their time wasted on hearing my monotonous and meaningless choices of words.

4.07.2013

ALICE LINDGREN

Mungkin aku gila. Ketertarikanku dalam membaca sebuah buku novel sudah melebihi daya ketertarikanku dalam berinteraksi dengan manusia-manusia nyata.

Mungkin karena aku tidak bisa menebak jalan pikiran dan tindakan orang-orang fiktif ini. Mereka selalu mengejutkanku, halaman demi halaman. Sedangkan di dunia nyata, tampaknya orang-orang bertindak sebagaimana dunia ingin mereka bertindak.

Atau mungkin aku sendiri yang tidak pandai bersosialisasi. Aku lebih merasa secure dengan tidak harus pandai bergaul karena mereka hanyalah karakter-karakter sebuah cerita fiktif. Mereka tidak perlu mengenal diriku. Tapi aku merasa beruntung mengenal mereka.