5.27.2013

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I'm currently reading a novel. I haven't finished reading it, because I have a cardiovascular summative I exam coming tomorrow and I'm not done memorizing the names of the humans' blood vessels (not that I'm planning to have it done today).

It's such a nice book because... the writer is able to create a character that is honest, innocent and straightforward. And he only occasionally uses difficult vocabulary. I feel very guilty for actually downloading the pdf version instead of buying the real book, especially after reading some chapters and realize that I love it. I promise I'll buy the real book once I get over my cardiovascular summatives and get the chance to visit the bookstore (because I won't have time to do so anytime sooner, since mama and my siblings are currently visiting, which is great because I already miss them too much).

I'm saving some quotes from the book because they're the lines that caught my attention as I was reading. I did not understand them all, and that's the point of listing them down here.

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"I feel ashamed, though, because that night, I had a weird dream. I was with Sam. And we were both
naked. And her legs were spread over the sides of the couch. And I woke up. And I had never felt that
good in my life. But I also felt bad because I saw her naked without her permission. I think that I should
tell Sam about this, and I really hope it does not prevent us from maybe making up inside jokes of our
own. It would be very nice to have a friend again. I would like that even more than a date."

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"Charlie, we accept the love we think we deserve."

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"I asked Patrick if he felt sad that he had to keep it a secret, and Patrick just said that he wasn't sad
because at least now, Brad doesn't have to get drunk or stoned to make love."

Chbosky Stephen. The Perks of Being A Wallflower. MTV Books (New York): 1999.

5.23.2013

Ya Allah.. Ya Sami' Addua'..

I'm aware I haven't been a good servant. But I have nowhere else to disgorge and unload my worldly issues... no one would understand (and I think it's better if it just stays that way) and You are the only one who knows, the good and bad, of my heart's sayings... Please ya Allah, don't let my heart be diseased spiritually and physiologically...

Ya Allah.. I know it's too selfish for me to ask for this.. for I haven't been a good servant. I beg you to provide me with strength and patience.. to take care of my little siblings while I have piles of academic assignments undone.. I don't want to complain, ya Allah because both taking care of my siblings and studying medicine are Your blessings and are the things I love to spend time doing in this temporary life.. please don't let me be ungrateful, please don't let me grumble on them only when I can no longer exert energy to accomplish them, or when they reveal challenges.. please give me strength, ya Allah.. to carry out my duties as a good daughter, responsible sister, supportive friend, hardworking medical apprentice, and as Your faithful servant..