12.22.2015

There are good days here when I find myself immersed in a wave of laughter, a genuine feeling of joy and I think, I'm happy. I'm floating above water.

But in between that, I talk to you, and with all honesty, you make me deeply sad and hurt. You give me no words of sorrow, no words of comfort. You give me no words, and I drown in an ocean of blue. The silent waves hit my chest over and over and I forget that I'm able to swim. Tears overwhelm me and I swallow them and I choke. I hyperventilate and eventually I sigh.

What a pathetic aching feeling. I'm cringing in pain and all I want to say is that, I'm

Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt
Hurt.

I want to indulge in my sorrow until I'm willing to stop feeling hurt

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